“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9, ESV
Not long after I accepted the position with The Amazima School, I was sharing the news with someone who had walked alongside me throughout most of the journey of applying. As she was discussing with me some of the challenges I might face, this wise woman said to me, “I wouldn’t be surprised if the most challenging part of this is something you didn’t see coming.” Being that I am not far into this transition, I am not going to be arrogant enough to assume I’m facing the greatest challenges yet. I haven’t even left Culpeper at this point. However, this experience has been a humbling one so far. I have been fortunate enough that, up until this point, most new endeavors I have taken on have been fairly easy transitions for me. Not that I haven’t had my own share of hardships, but I always knew that if I kept working hard, I would be successful.
This new path that God has called me down has me completely out of my comfort zone. I have never felt like my future was so entirely out of my hands. I have been longing and praying for God to take me to a place where I am utterly dependent on Him, but I never imagined that I would get there without actually going anywhere. This is the first time I can recall where hard work will only get me part of the way, and I have to rely on God for the rest. I was raised to be a fairly self-sufficient, independent woman, so for me to openly admit that I have found myself struggling on this path that God has laid out for me is difficult. For me to admit that I have difficulty leaning on God for help instead of trying to do it all on my own is even harder. But I can rest in the knowledge that with each struggle, I am being challenged to draw closer to Him. And being drawn closer to God is never a bad thing.
So while I am struggling to “let go and let God,” I know that it is ultimately all for His glory. While I can only see a small corner of the story He is weaving, He can already see the full blanket. Join me in praying that God would continue to teach me dependence on Him and that I would be pulled closer to Him with each challenge I face.
Love you all!
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