“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.” Proverbs 3:5 (ESV)
Four months ago, I was content. I had a job that I loved: I worked with a team of teachers that should make every middle school teacher green with envy; I had a principal who was supportive and encouraging; and I taught students who made me laugh every single day, even on the days that I wanted to pull my hair out. And not just like “haha cute” laugh, I’m talking full-on belly laugh. Even though I had been feeling a tug on my heart to go into ministry abroad for about a year at that point, God was definitely calling me to stay in my current position for another year.
At least that’s what I thought until 8 days later, I got restless. I was too comfortable. I began looking (again) into ministries abroad and eventually ended up at the Amazima School site. I filled out an interest form and went to work.
Several months and many prayers later, I was offered a position at the Amazima Staff Children’s School, teaching 7-12 grade mathematics. I waited to accept it. If I accepted it, I would be giving up a job I loved, a salary and benefits that worked for me, and it would mean jumping into something completely unknown (raising support? selling my stuff? moving to Africa?). I know that God doesn’t call us to live a life of comfort, but if I did this, it would almost be like I didn’t have control over my life. Almost like God was challenging me to trust Him to take care of the areas of my life on which I previously felt I had a good grasp. After talking to a dear Christian friend (hi, Dayna!), who wasn’t shy about calling me out on my fears, I accepted the position. I wish I could say I immediately felt at peace with the decision, but I didn’t. All I knew was that I felt more at peace with trusting God with this opportunity than I did about staying comfortable where I was.
Fortunately, I don’t serve a God who loves us only when we trust Him perfectly. God has used that mustard seed of trust and is growing it in my life. Some days, that mustard seed feels like it has grown into a small tree; other days it feels like it’s the size of a blueberry. Most of the time, it’s somewhere in the middle. But it’s no longer the size of a mustard seed.
I am so excited to be joining a ministry that is doing God’s work and furthering the Kingdom in Uganda! If you would like to learn more about Amazima Ministries, I encourage you to explore their site!
Many blessings to you!